Sunday, April 27, 2008

4/26/08

Things I know:

I love my son now more than ever. I took for granted the early years, I will never let that happen again.

I made mistakes, many of them I regret

I will make mistakes

Riding my bike is keeping my head above water

Thinking about the loss currently underway, a family unit, a friend, a partner, a future—it seems totally overwhelming, not part of the "plan"...

The future, the "plan" has been broken/altered... the unknown, scary as it may seem, is also intriguing.... anything can happen, it's up to me...

Tomorrow is another day...today I must live.


Monday, April 14, 2008

Jake time


Quick post...

This past weekend was pretty cool, Saturday I got back into my Saturday Morning group ride. Really fun to see the gang and do some extra miles in beautiful weather. Ended up hitting Dry Creek with a small group and then peeling off to do Veeder with Patrick. Crazy how much difference the higher temps make, still go in about 45 miles on a beautiful day. 

Funny thing, Dry Creek to Veeder is my favorite local ride. So much so, that my identified "happy place" (as recognized with my therapist), the place where I have the most clear thoughts is out there. Anyway, I've been hitting the route up on Wednesday's with Curtis and some of the crew from Bicycle Works—usually end up descending in the dark (also fun)—to the tune of 25-35 additional miles in the middle of the week. Does a lot for my thinking and future. One benefit; it seems like I am getting a little stronger (or maybe it is more used to) the climbing out there. Whatever it is, I like it and will keep moving forward...as I have always believed, it's nice to ride with stronger people (almost everyone is over me)—helps elevate my game and keeps me breathing!

Sunday was big plans—Jake and I where gonna combine two things-a trip to Angwin to watch some of my friends race and to look for skinks. We were successful in both. Walking around the course, we were able to see everyone as they finished the race; Andrew, Curtis, Tom from Content Works, George Hope, Leslie, even Jiro from the old King days. While out on the course we were flipping rocks and logs and finally found it—the blue tailed skink! They're fast little guys and drop their tale (as this one did) in the blink of an eye. Jake was hooked and soon we had a sweet blue belly. We hiked up the super steep drop in and on the way up Jake showed his skills by catching a nice sized blue belly by himself on a fence post. Rock on! His enthusiasm and skills make me so proud!

From there we hung around the finish line chatting and watching the festivities. Jake was stoked to get a free ice cream sandwich from some real pro's from the Kona team—it paid off as we ended up waiting longer than expected before heading to lunch. Jake was just "one of the guys" at the Azteca market in St. Helena as we munched on burritos, orange rice and Boing! Peach drinks. He cracked us all up as he announced half-way through lunch that there weren't any girls! Just a simple observation of our all male-group, but funny as it also pertained to bike racing in general (although there are getting to be more ladies). 

After lunch Jake and I headed to Dry Creek road to look for some more newts and skinks. We parked and hiked along the creek where we caught a bullfrog. Jake again surprised me when he caught another blue belly all by himself. His skills are incredible and he's very responsible (gentle and careful) with the animals.

Our last stop was for a Keva Juice smoothie as it was still really hot at 6PM. We headed home for a bath and dinner before hitting the couch to read a Choose Your Own Adventure. Awesome day.

As I have said before, our family situation is going to change sooner than (I) ever hoped, but it only gives me more energy and enthusiasm to channel toward this wonderful little person.

* Sorry no Angwin pics, I had the camera on the wrong setting accidentally and they're all jacked up...


Monday, April 07, 2008

6 Seconds

So close...so, so close...



Great race none-the-less, I am sure if Leslie was in proper form, we'da been smoked...


Here's the full results, congrats Jeff and Kathleen and George Hope you guys are crushers.

It was nice to see Steve Tam, Coby, and all the other folks out there too, these races and stuff are pretty fun...especially from mid to back pack!

Busy, Busy...

So the focus on hanging with Jake-mo and riding more is really helping me keep my self together. The focus toward being positive and the future is making it a lot more bearable when it comes to the present issues at hand.

That being said, I will try to post about the recent adventures which include; building gnome homes, Grasshopper #3, Boggs 8 Hour race, Reptile club and more as soon as I can.

In the interest of preserving and posting images, you can head over to my Flickr page and see a bunch of photos from past couple of weeks...

The next 30-60 days are going to be the most radically different and challenging to date, bear with me if posts slow down for a bit...
...on the positive side, there's some more sally hunting to be done with Jake-mo, planning a hike for reptile club, Stonebridge yearbook and play area work, maybe Sea Beaver with Jake-mo to go check out the "scene" and to see Steve working at the Giant booth, possibly a trip to Reddin' for Lemurian, more Grassshoppers, Wednesday night rides, frisbee golf, getting the drawing for my Retrotec done (fingers crossed) and a ton of work to be done for SSWC08...like I said, staying busy is key right now. So that's what I will do.

Wednesday, March 19, 2008

Words

Today...
Work went by
Onto road bike for ride
Head out at 5:30
P.M.
Redwood Rd to Hess
To Bicycle Works
More friends join
Dry Creek To Veeder
Darkness Falling
Climb Veeder
Darkness Falls
I have no light
Moon almost full
Others leave lights off
Mostly...
Darkness
Descent
No lights
Fast
Faster
Too fast
Trust yellow line
Smile inside
and out
Home by 9
Life is good
This is just the start...

Sunday, March 16, 2008

Sunday with Jake

Lookin' cool at Alston!

Today was the second weekend of the newly designated Jake and Daddy day (as he is with Cari on Saturdays). Our adventures today were around cycling as Jake wanted to ride Alston and I needed to head around town to take some pics for SSWC08 eating, drinking and sleeping establishments.

As is normal for weekends only, Jake was up super early and ready to go. I, on the other hand, was a bit slow and sore from the ride on Saturday. The bed felt so nice, it was hard to get up! But I did and headed to make some breakfast and start our day. Jake loves eggs so that's what we had. He also loves bacon (thereby proving without a DNA test, he's my son!). I figured oh, one eggs all he'll eat. Wrong! He had two eggs and 3 strips of bacon with OJ and loved it!

We did some playing with Hotwheels and backyard sally hunting before we settled into what to do. He voted for Alston, so that's where we headed. It was really windy again today and we found ourselves being blown around out there. After some ferocious headwinds, we even opted out of riding to the gnome homes in Alston, instead we'd hook up the tag-a long and get Curtis to ride downtown to eat at Taylors and take some pics, oh yeah and get a cone at Fosters Freeze!

While at Alston I have to say, Jake ROCKS on his bike! Starts are faster and cleaner and he hauls butt out there! Of course he lays down some tremendous skids which we'll have to curtail, but even those,in the midst of what looks like a full on fishtail to crash, he pulls it out and rides on. I am so proud!

We jammed home, hooked up the tag-a-long and headed downtown. Stop one was Napa River Velo for a chain Curtis needed. While he chatted, we found the sweetest pair of Fox full-finger gloves. Now of course I am a sucker for this stuff and they fit Jake, so we got em! Next we road the RR tracks across the RR bridge to Taylors for our $30 hamburger and coke. Jake was rarin' to go so he pedaled hard as we criss-crossed downtown Napa shooting places for SSWC08 folks to drink, eat and sleep in August. The ride was capped with a delicious cone at Foster's Freeze.


Jake muggin' for the camera with his Fox gloves!

We got home and outta the wind just in time to head out to OSH to buy some balsa wood so Jake could make a rocket. Unfortunately, they did not have balsa, but Jake did get a sweet saw that he can use (with my or his mother's supervision) on his projects. Needless to say he wanted to start right now! But bath, dinner and 7:30 (ish) bed-time were close, so we agreed to design it this week and work on it Friday when I am home with him.

As our lives transition away from the traditional family, I am more than happy to spend more time one on one with my son. He is an incredible little dude that constantly amazes, and cracks me up with his humor and intelligence....in short I love him with all my heart!



A little movie from the SD450 camera while trailing Jake one-handed at Alston...

Grasshopper #2

Here I am...Grasshopper #2
Photo courtesy of kimdow at Flickr


Quick one on Grasshopper #2 as I had a dead battery in camera and not too many pics to show the incredible ride we had Saturday.

The nutshell goes a little somethin' like this...

All the online weather folks were calling for the end of the world on Saturday--thunderstorms, lightning, 70% chance of rain and on and on...I was in until Curtis said Jeff and Cameron (much stronger riders and his barometers of whether to go or not) were saying no way (that was on Friday night)...I was fine either way, he agreed to call me first AM Saturday and we'd decide then.

7:00am rolled by, then 7:30...OK cool, I'm doing the Azzurro ride, no need to worry about braving the weather in Occidental...ahhhhh, then like 7:35, the phone rings..."we're going! and Peter's going too!"
Oh damn, it's on. At least with Peter I would have my familiar wing-man out there suffering along with me...so get up, dress, down coffee, down cereal, say goodbye to Jake and hop in Scion for trip out.

Rain? Uhhh, no. Try blue skies and wind. Still had jersey pockets stuffed liek a squirrel for winter with heavy-ass rain coat, food, electronics, money, license...There were a ton of people out there, at least 150. One dude stood out, none other than Levi Leipheimer was there to race. Mind you this is a free event, no support, no prizes...guess the lack of a tour invite puts him out with us folk--pretty cool I had to admit. By the way the only time I saw him was at the start. He won (of course), did 65 miles with 6,000 feet of climbing in 2:59:00...

My "spy shot" of Levi...I had dreamt I would be able to get a better one at end of race..maybe if I finished closer to him (which is physically impossible for me)


Out we headed in a neutral roll-out, although this time it was a bit faster paced and a little jumpy. We owned teh road for 8 miles until the fist pee-break. I was ready to pop and needed it. Of course with shy bladder, unit hanging out side of road-style and some other dude intent on talking to me while I tried to pee didn't help...it was a no go for too long. When I finally got the deed done, I was fighting to catch back onto the end of the pack. After a few miles I did, got up to Peter and just kept pedaling (sorry Peter, my nerves got the best of me). I ended up joining Alexis from Norcal Velo and a guy named Jim-we ended up staying together the entire time, and boy did we need it-the wind was a crusher and would have sucked to be alone out in it (again-sorry Peter, you are the man for doing it alone).

We rode in some really cool areas near Dillion beach, along Tomales Bay and out to the Marshall "Wall" lots of climbing and super fast descents with the wind blowing you side-ways. If you haven't guessed it, I hate the wind. It was maddening. I couldn't hear, it was in our face for like 2 hours at least and made things pretty tough all-around. With the course calling out 70 miles or so, at 63, I was stoked to know we were close. On last climb up to Occidental and Alexis and I rolled across the line together at a healthy 4:28:00, Jim was 2 minutes back after he discovered his seat bag was open!

Burritos and good company were in order as we waited for Peter. He made it across about 1 hour later and we headed back to Napa and saw at 4:00PM the first rain! Oh yeah, a necessary stop for fresh, organic bread at little bakery in Freestone was in order too, yummy goodness...

I really am glad I am getting out to do these rides and spend time with new friends and folks, it's a great spirit in the air and a wonderful time to be had while punishing yourself physically! See you all at #3...

As always, check out my Flickr, The Grasshopper Flickr Page or Motionbased for all the details I could acquire...